Stay

Isn't it funny how, when you need somebody most, you push them away? And then there's silence, and you are alone again. Maybe it's because you don't want to let them see what's inside... or you don't know what's inside yourself. Fear of the unknown can lead to just ignoring it.

But is that what you really want? To push everyone you love away and not have anyone to talk to? Maybe deep down, you are really testing them to see who will stay and suffer the coldness... and try to overcome it. It takes a special person to do that and not many have that much love inside of them. I don't know if I do.

Being alone is not what you want, so why do you push them away, again and again? This is a question even you yourself don't have an answer to. All you know is that you are waiting for someone who will ask questions, maybe even seem pushy, and get you to admit to yourself what is wrong. Get you to admit it to them so it's out there in the open and you will not be able hide it anymore. And you can just be honest... and free.

 But it has to be the right person. Because just anyone may push it further back into the deep, hidden reaches of your heart until it becomes something that you yourself don't even know about. Still, it will be there and will plague you until you don't want to have anything to do with it anymore, and you will not know how to get rid of it anymore.

All I'm saying is be the person who doesn't shy away. Be the one who stays and asks questions. You never know who's hurting and needs to talk. If you are pushed away, maybe this is a cry for help. Maybe the person who pushed you away will not even realize they need it until you give it.

I'm Fine

They will tell you that you're not okay

When you thought you hid it well.

They won't accept just an, "I'm fine."

They'll ask you till you tell.

The smile that you put on your face

Will never fool them if it's fake.

Because if they are your true friends

They will know you really well.

Maybe there will be some days

When you just want to hide;

When you want no one to see through you

And no one to get inside.

But these walls that you yourself have made

Are not something to be down-played;

You need someone who knows you well,

Who doesn't stop at just, "I'm fine."