My God Has Been Small

I don't know about you, but I have found lately that I have gotten caught up in my own little world of friends, everyday happenings, regrets, happy moments, thoughts of the future here and there, my problems, etc., and have, in the midst of that, somehow put God in a box as small as my world is. Maybe I'm trying to make him fit my world. 

But he doesn't. 

I'm so caught up in my own little world that I forget just how BIG my God is and just how powerful.

It probably all comes down to my not praying as much as I ought to. There is power in prayer, and there is greatness in power. When one prays and sees his prayers answered, he gets a tiny sliver-glimpse of the power of God. And when one sees the power of God, can he deny his greatness?

I forget that God was not born at the same time as I was. God has not lived a mere 19 years as I have; he has been since ages past and will be for ages to come. And he has been the SAME yesterday, is the same today, and will be the same FOREVER. He has seen everything that has happened, everything that is happening, and everything that will EVER happen. He is the same God who sent his Son to die for poor, wretched sinners like me. He is the same God who saved me and has been my Comfort and ever-present Help in the storms of my life. I have a RELATIONSHIP with this God. How can I, knowing all this, just blow him off and not even talk to him?

It's so easy to fall in love. When you love someone you want to be with them all the time; tell them everything about your day, your life, your dreams, your goals; talk to them all the time and listen to everything they have to say; you want to learn everything about them and learn everything you can from them. These are the desires of a person in love. Should these not be the desires of a member of the Bride of Christ? Falling in love is simple, but loving someone is something you have to work at and that will reward you in the end. 

God, I want to love you, really love you. And yet I haven't even felt those desires of a person in love...

Plant your seed of love in my heart, Lord. Show me how great you are and that you cannot be limited and won't be limited just because my world is small and I am trying to fit you into it. Expand my world, Jesus. And merge it with yours. Fit me into your Kingdom. Show me how big you are and teach me how small I am.... I don't want you to be small in my eyes anymore.