How Can You Be Glorified??

"To live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21

It's easy to see how dying is gain. We will be with Him, the Lover of our hearts forever in glory, no longer to have to wrestle with the sin that has bound us and the pain that it brings in this life. But sometimes, it's harder to see how to live is Christ because we are still in this sin-cursed world. And we have problems of our own.

If we read before and after the verse, it gives the context. "I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me." He is saying that either way, Christ will be exalted. Yet can Christ be exalted if we only focus on our problems in this life? How can he be exalted when we lose the will to live, when life becomes tiresome and we don't want to deal with the trials that come our way? He cannot, that I know. But how can we stop feeling  this way so that Christ may be glorified?

This is my question, but the answer seems to elude me.

Her tears flowed as the Devil whispered lies, But she fought on her knees with muffled cries. Her words were taken from her as if by a spell. The only word she remembered, she clung to: HELP.

This is what I feel.... And I don't know how to stop. I've tried going to God, but it seems like I am only using him to fix me and i am not going because i love him. I want to love him. But at times I feel I don't know how.

I need LIFE spoken into mine. It no longer seems like one. I have not glorified Him as I ought...